Rain like ash began to fall in the glade. Richard ducked beneath the oak and curled into the arch of the split trunk. The rain fell harder, greying the view. He would wait. There wasn’t much to do but wait, anyway; the money was gone, all gone. What a way for a king to go.
Richard sagged against the rough bark, letting the ridges gouge, and stared across the lawn at the streaming stone of his home, his ruined castle. All he had lost – all he had worked for, taken from him. Governments! Bloody taxmen, baying for handouts. He hadn’t come from much, but he’d battled and built an empire. His mother had called him king, even as a child. A king deserved to keep what was his.
A door opened amid the stone flank of the house and a blond head, speckled with silver, appeared. Richard crabbed behind the trunk. The wet world was quiet, but thoughts still bellowed round his head, like a hound chasing its tail. He closed his eyes.
“Richard,” a voice snapped from across the clearing.
He opened his eyes to see the familiar iron figure, slim but rigid, like a crowbar. Her arms were folded, her back braced against the rain: Theresa.
“Hello Terry,” he said, aiming for lightness. His voice sounded strange, even to him. He couldn’t go out in public any more, among people interacting normally. He no longer knew how they did it.
“I’ve been looking for you,” she said wearily. “Dinner’s ready.”
“Oh?” Richard paused. “What is it?”
“It’s cold, at this point. That’s what it is.”
“I think maybe I’ll just stay here.” Meek, supplicating. He hated himself.
“Come on. Enough of this.” Theresa advanced across the glade.
“No! No!” Richard shrieked, hysteria spiralling. He shrank into the tree. “It’s raining! The water will come through the roof! We can’t fix it, Terry! You know we can’t!”
“Come on,” said Theresa, grasping his arm. The thin cotton of his sleeve, soaked transparent, clung to the bulbous knots of his veins.
Richard snatched back his arm. “It’s terrible, Terry,” he moaned, looking at her with limpid eyes, a washed-out blue. Theresa sighed.
“What is?”
Richard gazed at her in silence, shaking his head. The few wisps of his hair had come unstuck and waved softly, wilting to the wrong side of his temple.
“Don’t worry,” she said, “about the water. If it comes through again we can fix it.”
“We can’t,” Richard insisted. “We can’t afford it.”
“Richard, we can.” Theresa took his arm again. “Don’t be so ridiculous.”
“But you don’t understand!” he wailed. “You don’t know!”
“I know you did something very silly,” she said grimly, turning to march him back. He resisted for a moment, weeping, then allowed himself to be steered between the trees.
The kitchen was warm. Richard slid into his chair, compliant, while Theresa opened the oven. A cloud of mushroom and onions puffed out.
They ate quietly, rain pattering. Theresa felt the familiar wrench of yearning for the children, now grown, twined with relief that they weren’t around to endure what was happening at home.
“You know,” Richard said in a reasonable tone, “if you would just let me explain – if you could understand the problems…”
He jumped as Theresa’s hand slammed the table.
“That’s enough,” she said. “There are no problems. Just ordinary things that everybody has to deal with.”
“Everybody doesn’t deal with this,” he snarled. “The roof is leaking! We’ve got rot in the timbers in the barn, the heater for the pool doesn’t work, the shutters don’t close in Samantha’s room…”
“It’s just maintenance.”
“… the dryer doesn’t dry properly!” Richard shrilled.
“It doesn’t matter, can’t you see?”
“But how are we going to pay for it? We don’t have the money!”
“We do have the money, Richard, for God’s sake!”
Richard cast back his head and started keening, an unnatural sound – like an elephant, thought Theresa wildly, or an old woman. A crazy, selfish old madwoman. Just like his mother.
“Stop it,” she hissed. “Shut up.”
The rage fizzed up like a shaken soda bottle and, through her fist, burst out upon Richard’s face. The faraway despair in his eyes flamed to bewilderment, then shock.
“You hit me!” he shrieked, scrambling out of his chair. “You hit me!”
Theresa tasted a brief surge of satisfaction, like a savory drop of blood. Swiftly, anger and sorrow soured the rush. He had driven her to this; what else could she do? Doctors were no help. He had brought this upon himself, and upon her. His selfishness would destroy their whole family.
She stood up and stepped away. Richard was quailing in horror, tentatively touching his face.
“I’m sorry,” she said. Stepping towards him, she felt a stab of guilt as he flinched. “Let me see it.” A patch of red bloomed across the furrows of his cheek.
“Richard,” she said, laying a hand on the crook of his arm, “it’s all so unnecessary.” His eyes flared, but he didn’t move, like a cornered animal.
“You wanted this house,” he spat. “You insisted on it. I didn’t want it. You wanted it, and now we have all these problems.”
“The only problems we have, Richard, are the result of you fiddling your taxes!”
“Fiddling taxes,” he scoffed. “That’s not…”
“You think the rules don’t apply to you,” Theresa stormed. “This is what comes from being raised in a crazy family. Who calls a child a king?” she sneered.
Richard stared, defiant.
“The problems in this house,” he started.
“There are no problems!” Theresa screamed. “You are the problem! It’s all in your mind!”
Theresa, his iron queen, broke down. Sobbing, she fled the room. Her tears triggered his own and, once more, Richard began to cry. Sooty streaks found the crevices in his crumpled face and filled them like runoff from a blackened river. One by one the stones of the castle in his mind came tumbling down around him.
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Ben Shepherd has published short stories in Crimewave, Fictive Dream, London Magazine, and Magma. He was runner-up for Writing Magazine’s Grand Flash Prize, and is currently assembling his first short story collection. He lives in Leeds.